Bad week

Saturday, September 15, 2007

If I don't go crazy this week and/or kill myself, I'll have accomplished a lot. I have four tests plus a quiz this week. Next week I have two projects due, and another test. Taking this many credits probably wasn't the smartest thing I have ever done. Also, in this major, they do a lot of "group work"...which I am starting to despise. In engineering, it was all about learning it on your own. But this major, its all about GROUP GROUP GROUP. Literally, in all of my classes, I am a member of a stupid group.
Tomorrow I am going to go see Paeton and Braden. I can't wait. I really miss them. Its hard living in the same town ( kind of) and not seeing them very often. The same goes for Emily. We really do live in the same town and I am lucky if I see her once in six months. There is something strange going on there.

The things you could never say

Thursday, September 13, 2007

I got this from my friend on myspace. Its a list of 15 things about 15 people you wish you could say, but never will. The "mean" things are not always to one specific person, and I really don't mean any harm. It just feels good to finally express some things.
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1) List 15-ish things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.

1. You are my best friend, and the love of my life. I don't think I could survive this world without you. Through the good times and the bad, I never want to be away from you.

2. You are the cause of my most hurtful and traumatic experiences in my life. I had so much respect and love for you, but that all went away. I love you so much, and want so badly to trust you again, but you'll never tell the truth. Its true what they say, the truth shall set you free, and I think you would be so much happier if you did so.

3. You are a liar and a manipulator. You will never be capable of dealing with the truth, and living in the "real world". Things will never be the same between us, which is sad, but you have burned too many bridges.

4. You are one of the most amazing people I have ever met. You are my best friend, and many times, my rock. You never let people get the best of you, and I strive everyday to be like that. You will and have always been very successful. I love you a lot, and I am very glad you came into my life.

5. I never thought we would be in the relationship we are now. We never really got along, and now we are turning out to be really good friends. I love you so much, and only want the best for you. You are doing a lot to help a million other people out, while sacrificing yourself. You need to work out some issues, and once you do, you'll be so much happier.

6. I don't know what I would do without you. I am glad we have come to the place we are now. I love you with ever fiber of my being, and have nothing but respect and admiration for you. You have been through more crap than anyone else I know. And you still stand strong. I really hope you are happy.

7. You are really starting to make bad choices. I know we have been through a lot together and seperately, but you are still young enough to not go down these roads you are heading. You have a lot to look forward to, and I wish you would realize there is more beyond highschool.

8. You are one of the most coolest grandmas I know. I love you very much, and am grateful to have the relationship we do. It's a little akward sometimes, but thats okay.

9. You also are one of my best friends, and the reason why I am alive, literally. The strong bond we have is unbreakable. I wish you weren't such a push over, and I know its only because of your huge heart, but all the same- you let too many people walk all over you. I have come to realize and accept the choices you made in your life, and have nothing but love for you.

10. I know you are trying to come back into my life, and I would never oppose that. However, you stabbed me in the back too many times for things to ever be the same. Life moves on, and so have we.

11. I think about you a lot. You are responsible for some of the most amazing and horrible moments in my life. You have let yourself go, for whatever reason, and I wish you would turn your life around. I hope you find what you are looking for.

12. I wish we wouldnt have let those few monthes pass without talking. I know you only have my best interest at heart, and I am the same for you. You are a great friend and always have been. I know I can truely be myself around you, and I love you for that.

13. I miss you. My family misses you. I know you think you'll never find "true love", but you will. These girls are just too blind to see the amazing and giving person you are. Im glad we have grown close.

14. You were one of my best friends, but unfortunatly, time and distance has put a strain on that. I love you, and always have. You were a great listener, and a perpetual giver. I know you have finally found the right path in life, and I really really hope you are happy. Someday I really want us to be back to the way we were.

15.You are the light of my life. I love you so incrediably much, and am very glad you came into my life. Someday I hope to explain some things to you, but I will just have to wait until you get a little older.

A relaxing time.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Already I have fallen behind on this thing! The past week has been good, just completed another week of school. Only thirteen left to go! Last night after I got home from class, I was pretty relaxed. I really like not having school on Fridays because it allows me to either catch up on homework or housework. But last night I actually sat down and made some cards. I was having that itch to do something crafty, and the plan was to only make one card, but I ended up making like seven of them. Oh well, I love it, and its a stress reliever.

For the past two days, the dogs have been driving me crazy. I think its because I have been home alone with them and they are requiring a lot of my attention. It's times like this where I think I wouldn't be able to handle a child. But everyone tells me that kids are so much different than dogs, and that kids are actually easier than dogs, whatever that means.

I went to the fair on Wen. with my dad, mom, and sister. It was a lot of fun. I had told my dad on Tuesday that I was really disappointed because I was supposed to go to the fair on Thursday with my friend, but she had canceled on me. So then on Wen. he called and asked if I wanted to go. He was being really nice about it and it meant a lot to me. Even after all this time its easy to see that my dad just wants his kids to be happy, even if its something as stupid as going to the fair.

Another cup of coffee is calling my name, and unfortunately I have to go to work.

Until next time...