Bad week

Saturday, September 15, 2007

If I don't go crazy this week and/or kill myself, I'll have accomplished a lot. I have four tests plus a quiz this week. Next week I have two projects due, and another test. Taking this many credits probably wasn't the smartest thing I have ever done. Also, in this major, they do a lot of "group work"...which I am starting to despise. In engineering, it was all about learning it on your own. But this major, its all about GROUP GROUP GROUP. Literally, in all of my classes, I am a member of a stupid group.
Tomorrow I am going to go see Paeton and Braden. I can't wait. I really miss them. Its hard living in the same town ( kind of) and not seeing them very often. The same goes for Emily. We really do live in the same town and I am lucky if I see her once in six months. There is something strange going on there.

The things you could never say

Thursday, September 13, 2007

I got this from my friend on myspace. Its a list of 15 things about 15 people you wish you could say, but never will. The "mean" things are not always to one specific person, and I really don't mean any harm. It just feels good to finally express some things.
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1) List 15-ish things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.

1. You are my best friend, and the love of my life. I don't think I could survive this world without you. Through the good times and the bad, I never want to be away from you.

2. You are the cause of my most hurtful and traumatic experiences in my life. I had so much respect and love for you, but that all went away. I love you so much, and want so badly to trust you again, but you'll never tell the truth. Its true what they say, the truth shall set you free, and I think you would be so much happier if you did so.

3. You are a liar and a manipulator. You will never be capable of dealing with the truth, and living in the "real world". Things will never be the same between us, which is sad, but you have burned too many bridges.

4. You are one of the most amazing people I have ever met. You are my best friend, and many times, my rock. You never let people get the best of you, and I strive everyday to be like that. You will and have always been very successful. I love you a lot, and I am very glad you came into my life.

5. I never thought we would be in the relationship we are now. We never really got along, and now we are turning out to be really good friends. I love you so much, and only want the best for you. You are doing a lot to help a million other people out, while sacrificing yourself. You need to work out some issues, and once you do, you'll be so much happier.

6. I don't know what I would do without you. I am glad we have come to the place we are now. I love you with ever fiber of my being, and have nothing but respect and admiration for you. You have been through more crap than anyone else I know. And you still stand strong. I really hope you are happy.

7. You are really starting to make bad choices. I know we have been through a lot together and seperately, but you are still young enough to not go down these roads you are heading. You have a lot to look forward to, and I wish you would realize there is more beyond highschool.

8. You are one of the most coolest grandmas I know. I love you very much, and am grateful to have the relationship we do. It's a little akward sometimes, but thats okay.

9. You also are one of my best friends, and the reason why I am alive, literally. The strong bond we have is unbreakable. I wish you weren't such a push over, and I know its only because of your huge heart, but all the same- you let too many people walk all over you. I have come to realize and accept the choices you made in your life, and have nothing but love for you.

10. I know you are trying to come back into my life, and I would never oppose that. However, you stabbed me in the back too many times for things to ever be the same. Life moves on, and so have we.

11. I think about you a lot. You are responsible for some of the most amazing and horrible moments in my life. You have let yourself go, for whatever reason, and I wish you would turn your life around. I hope you find what you are looking for.

12. I wish we wouldnt have let those few monthes pass without talking. I know you only have my best interest at heart, and I am the same for you. You are a great friend and always have been. I know I can truely be myself around you, and I love you for that.

13. I miss you. My family misses you. I know you think you'll never find "true love", but you will. These girls are just too blind to see the amazing and giving person you are. Im glad we have grown close.

14. You were one of my best friends, but unfortunatly, time and distance has put a strain on that. I love you, and always have. You were a great listener, and a perpetual giver. I know you have finally found the right path in life, and I really really hope you are happy. Someday I really want us to be back to the way we were.

15.You are the light of my life. I love you so incrediably much, and am very glad you came into my life. Someday I hope to explain some things to you, but I will just have to wait until you get a little older.

A relaxing time.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Already I have fallen behind on this thing! The past week has been good, just completed another week of school. Only thirteen left to go! Last night after I got home from class, I was pretty relaxed. I really like not having school on Fridays because it allows me to either catch up on homework or housework. But last night I actually sat down and made some cards. I was having that itch to do something crafty, and the plan was to only make one card, but I ended up making like seven of them. Oh well, I love it, and its a stress reliever.

For the past two days, the dogs have been driving me crazy. I think its because I have been home alone with them and they are requiring a lot of my attention. It's times like this where I think I wouldn't be able to handle a child. But everyone tells me that kids are so much different than dogs, and that kids are actually easier than dogs, whatever that means.

I went to the fair on Wen. with my dad, mom, and sister. It was a lot of fun. I had told my dad on Tuesday that I was really disappointed because I was supposed to go to the fair on Thursday with my friend, but she had canceled on me. So then on Wen. he called and asked if I wanted to go. He was being really nice about it and it meant a lot to me. Even after all this time its easy to see that my dad just wants his kids to be happy, even if its something as stupid as going to the fair.

Another cup of coffee is calling my name, and unfortunately I have to go to work.

Until next time...

A day in the life of Thor & Doomsday

Thursday, August 30, 2007

12:00 pm- Mom comes home, and we patiently wait for our afternoon treat. We only get one if we were good, i.e; no pooping, no peeing, no tearing mom's underwear out of the drawer, no getting into the trash, no chewing on dad's guitar, no eating cardboard. Once she scans the area, we are in the clear.

12:10pm- After eating our treat, we are now really riled up. Its time to start playing. We make as much noise as possible, and run around the house wreaking havoc. Our "playing" is wrestling, chasing each other around, and chewing on each others cheeks/ears/arms/ or legs. The goal is to annoy mom as much as possible. Sometimes we mix it up and instead of tormenting each other, we seek out the cat and torment her. We find it very fun to annoy her. After all, its two against one.

12:11 pm- Our playing quickly turns into one of us whining or whimpering because the other one got too rough or was biting too hard. Mom yells, and we have to go to our separate corners. We sulk for a few minutes, and wait for mom to leave the room.

12:16 pm- We quickly get over our little fight, and its back to Play time.

12:39 PM- Our afternoon play session really tires us out. We can only go for about 20 minutes, because then its time for our 17Th nap of the day. We usually nap for about fifteen minutes, and then its time to start our cycle all over again.

3:36 PM- Dad comes home, and we pretend like we have been neglected all day. Sometimes we can score a treat from him too, but it depends on if mom tattles on us. Needless to say, our life is filled with playing and napping. It's rough.

Releif!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

So today I went and met with my academic adviser, and I found out I only have THREE more academic semesters left, and then I am out of this joint!! I can not wait. We made a layout of the remaining classes I still have to take, and my schedule will be relatively easy. I will probably have to take a class this summer, which will cost me an arm & leg, but it will prevent me from having to take 18 credits next fall. I will also have to do my internship in the summer of '09, but I will technically have my degree & will be able to walk the line in the spring of '09. ( By the way, my internship will be 40 hrs/week, for 11 weeks, UNPAID!)
I am so excited. It's good to have that feeling that there is actually a light at the end of the very long and treacherous tunnel I have been traveling. I am so grateful for all of my friends and family who have supported & never gave up on me when it came to school. I realize I have made a lot of mistakes, and wasted a lot of money, but I finally know where I am going in life.
Most of all, I am really thankful for Bevan because he is the one who had to take the brunt of my emotional breakdowns, and tear filled nights when I was struggling with my classes, and deciding to drop out of engineering. He has always been supportive, and told me he would love me no matter what I did. He said he would even love me if I was a "broke Hippy with an English major."
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First Day

Monday, August 27, 2007

Today was the first day of school. By now, its pretty much an everyday occurance for me. No big deal. However, it was Bevan's first day too. I was really excited for him. I felt like I was sending my baby (hypothetically speaking) off for his first day of school. As he was leaving, I bombarded him with " Don't forget your ID card on the table!", "Babe! Don't forget your lunch in the fridge.", "Call me when you get a break!". He probably couldn't wait to get out the door and away from me! But after he got out of school, he called me, and he sounded very excited. No matter how busy or broke we will be this year, hearing that excitement in his voice is worth every penny, and every minute.

My classes however were incredibly boring. My first professor sent someone in her place, and all we did was collect the handout and leave. An hour class turned into a five minute class. I then had to wait 8 hours, ( yes, I said EIGHT hours) for my next class. That class will be interesting. At first, I felt a little out of my element. I am so used to my engineering classes where everything is so precise, logical, and filled with rules and equations. But my HCA class was scatterbrained, and unorganized. My professor couldn't even figure out how to separate our class into groups since there were an odd number of students. I felt like pulling out my hair. So I finally raised my hand, and told her how to do it. In this class, there will be no midterm or finals. There is only weekly quizzes, and group presentations. Hopefully an easy "A".

Well, its time for bed so I can start my day all over again tomorrow.

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Slowly learning.

I decided to create this blog so many of my distant family members could see what is going on in our crazy/hectic/busy lives. I promise to update this as much as I can, and to keep my potty mouth to an absolute minimum!! I'll try and add pictures as much as I can.
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