Night's like these

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Bevan has been working a lot of swing shifts in the E.R the past few months, and tonight is no exception (working 3pm-3am). It's nights like these that make me miss him so much. Even though I saw him approximately 7 hours ago-- I feel like it's been days. I called his phone, just so I could hear his voice. I knew he wouldn't answer since he's obviously busy doing other things (like treating 14 year old boys with cut off fingers, and pregnant teenage girls who treat the E.R like their own personal gynecologist..true story!) But I was hoping against hope that he would answer, and deal with his pathetic wife!

It's also nights like these that make me realize how much I take his presence for granted. It's comforting to have him sitting in the next room painting, or to have him in the living room screaming obscenities at the t.v as he plays x-box live! It's the small, every day things that I take for granted.

It's also nights like these that make me realize one horrific fact: I might not be a good mom. When I am home alone with the dogs ( more specifically, it's one dog in particular), they(he) drive me insane! They're constantly in my face, or around my feet, tracking my every move. It made me realize that if I can't handle a tiny, needy little dog...how would I ever handle a small child!?

Well- the moral of the story is...I miss my husband.

I love ya babe, and can't wait until 3 A.M when you're back home.
♥
JLB